One Year of Sobriety

This month I celebrate one year of sobriety. In retrospect, I realize that I was an alcoholic for decades. I rationalized this glaring dependency since I was a successful technology executive and entrepreneur. In fact, I thought that my alcoholism was a sign that I had made it. In some odd way, the more successful I became the more a drunk I was. Now that is all gone.

Gone are the hangovers. Never again will I be barfing late at night hugging a toilet in a public restroom. And no more blackouts. Basically, I was forcing my body into a state of dehydration on a daily basis. And lastly, no more words blurting out of my mouth without considering the consequences.

I feel so good, and a cloud has been lifted. I am 65 years old, and I welcome the rest of my life. Healthy, clear minded and sober. In fact, I have never felt better.

Some of my closest friends have succumbed to alcohol. I rationalized that somehow I am different. I am stronger. For me that is what alcohol represents. A rationalization for my life. Now I know it is not.

I certainly spent a lot of money on booze, but the most important consideration is time. Aside from the health benefits, is the opportunity cost of time.

For me removing alcohol from my life created a hole. Daily, I was devoting hours of my life to this addictive substance and life style. Thankfully, I did not need to go to a rehab center. I needed to change my life which certainly was not easy. Since I began my alcohol journey in the mid 70’s, alcohol is now even more ubiquitous. In the last year, I did imbibe inadvertently. I had received a box chocolates laced with alcohol. Who knew? It is everywhere.

I had many drinking friends. I am sure they don’t miss me much. I miss them, but I don’t miss the alcohol. It is a trade off I am happy to make.

I want to thank the friends that reached out to me during this interesting stage in my life.