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I don’t want to die in a hospital room

In October 2023, I had a stroke. I was trapped in a hospital room for days with nothing to do. I had lost my freedom because of my health. I am 100% recovered. Thank God and I had a realization. You cannot choose when you die nor how, but you can choose where you will die. This poem popped in my head. One year later, it is still in my head.

They can’t tell you when but it might be soon.
I don’t want to die in a hospital room.
Mister take these chains off of me
I want to stand up and be free.
Stroke Stroke Stroke calling my name
Stroke Stroke Stroke will I ever be the same?

The doctor’s smile seemed somewhat smug
I don’t want any creepy drugs
That spike protein is clogging up my veins
A little lump lodged in my brain
I got a
Stroke Stroke Stroke calling my name
Stroke Stroke Stroke will I ever be the same?

A bad vaccine was quite the surprise
I don’t want to hear any more lies
Keep on keeping on I must
Only got God left to trust
Stroke stroke stroke calling my name
Stroke stroke stroke will I ever be the same?

There’s the smell of death and a hint of doom
I don’t want to die in a hospital room.
Mister let me sign that AMA
I want to go outside and enjoy this day.
Stroke stroke stroke calling my name
Stroke stroke stroke will I ever be the same?

How I Beat Hypertension Twice Without Medication

It was the mid 90’s in South Dakota. Gateway Computers was booming and so was my career. I had just recently made vice president at the most happening computer company of the 90’s. After a hard night of drinking, I went to the doctor for a physical. The doctor frowned and informed me that I had high blood pressure. The doctor speculated that it might be the boozing, but not in a school teacher kind of way. The good news was no medication was required, but from that day forward until I left the company, someone took my blood pressure weekly. Even when I was managing director of Gateway Europe, the weekly blood pressure checks continued. During that crazy period of my life, my blood pressure was high, but never over the top and no drugs required.

Once I left Gateway, my life changed considerably. The weather in Myrtle Beach, South Carolina was certainly more pleasant than South Dakota. I was 39, single, a millionaire and I drank too much. In a fit of inspiration, I decided to have a full medical physical. Guess what? My blood pressure was normal. 120 / 80. I had no idea what made it go down. I still was drinking a six pack daily. I speculated with Ted that it was the stress of being in upper management at a Fortune 200 company. I had a new lease on life. A cloud had been lifted. My blood pressure was normal.

I founded my company, moved to Brazil, married, had two kids, and started running daily. I even ran 1/2 marathons. And my blood pressure was normal. In 2013, we moved back to the United States, and urgent cares had sprouted like weeds in Myrtle Beach. They aggressively monitor blood pressure. Even if I had ear wax, they were going to check my blood pressure. Fortunately, my blood pressure was still normal.

Then sometime around the pandemic, I returned to an urgent care clinic, and lo and behold, my blood pressure was, ahem, elevated. Worse yet, was the attitude. One would have thought I was a public health menace, the way they looked at me. And of course, I was not on any of their fancy drugs. The marketing of these drugs is too much. Their marketing departments call hypertension, the “silent killer”. They want you to believe that there is no early warning. No symptoms and then bang, you are dead. Unless you take their wonder pills. So instead, I exercised like a maniac. In addition to running, I went on long bike rides, and swam in the ocean while in Rio de Janeiro. It was so enjoyable to exercise earnestly every day, like my life depended on it.

Then in October 2023, I had a stroke which, they say, is a potential outcome of high blood pressure. My wife, 25 years my junior, was freaking out, and she convinced me that I should take some blood pressure drugs. At the time, the blood pressure was 140/100, give or take. I bought a little blood pressure machine and religiously took their pills every day. At one point, I was in Brazil and ran out of my blood pressure medicine. My doctor confirmed it was OK to purchase at a local pharmacy. The drug was called Olmesartin, and in Brazil, no prescription is required. You are in the pharmacy less than 5 minutes. Here is the catch. Olmesartin costs less than $5, which is less than my health plan’s copay. Process that, the drug companies are making money off the copay. Your premiums are gravy. What a business model. I lost confidence in this life saving drug. My confidence in my health care plan plummeted.

In April 2024, it had been six months since the stroke, and I visited my doctor. She took my “vitals”. You got to love the marketing. My blood pressure was still elevated. After six months of dedicated pill popping, nothing nada. I told her that I did not want to take this drug because it was not working. She of course offered alternative medicinals. I politely declined, and she was cool with that. I was worried that might be the end of our relationship.

I was nervous about quitting Olmesartan. After all, their message is that I am going to keel over dead, if I stop. I compensated by changing my life in other ways. I finally stopped drinking alcohol. I wasn’t an alcoholic but it is more difficult than one would think to stop. Alcohol is intertwined in how we live our lives. All the time I saved not drinking, I began daily anaerobic workouts. I was never much for sweets when I was younger, but after marrying, my wife turned me on to chocolates and ice cream. I was never over weight or out of shape, but it was a habit. I quit that too.

In August 2024, I nervously returned to my doctor. She yanked out the blood pressure machine, and after the reading, she did not say a word. After an awkward pause, I asked, “What is it?” “124 / 82”, she smiled. I honestly couldn’t believe it. I was normal without any medications. You can accomplish anything if you take the time to do it. Most people don’t have the time. The American medical system is a religion, and I am an atheist in this regard.

Sobriety – 50 years of drinking comes to an end

April 4, 2024 was my wife, Solange’s, 39th birthday, and we had a little celebration at a local restaurant. This year, I had tapered my alcohol intake substantially. However, with any excuse, me and Solange’s friends began pouring elixirs down our throats. I had three craft beers, nothing extreme, but I began to feel the profound pull that booze had on my life.

I began drinking in early 70’s long before I turned 18, the age restriction at the time. That’s over 50 years of drinking. I grew up in Bowie Maryland, and my friend’s and I would imbibe Tuborg and Michelob in dark parking lots or the back seats of cars. I went to college and the first week, I turned 18. Now I could legally drink. In Ithaca NY, the local beer was Genesee Cream Ale and six packs went for $1 and a pitcher sometime on sale for $.50. I started experimenting with gin and tonics. I started at Texas Instruments in the early 80’s and Coor’s Light became my poison of choice. At one point, I challenged myself to drink every day and guess what. I nailed it. At this point, my thinking was that I could drink often and as much as I wanted, as long as I could maintain a successful career.

When I moved to South Dakota, Gateway was a hard drinking company, and I fit right in. I moved to Dublin Ireland to run’s Gateway’s European operations, and I fell in love with Guiness. Alcohol and the pub life were ingrained into the Irish life. I think Santa Claus was Irish.

I left Gateway and the frigid plains of South Dakota, single, a millionaire, and moved to South Carolina. The good news is that my drinking didn’t get worse despite ample free time and cash, but it sure as heck didn’t get much better. I did write some pretty cool songs in my nightly sloshy state.

Then I moved to Brazil where I finally married my beautiful wife, Solange. She is not much of a drinker (was that a sign?), but I continued boozing regularly. In fact, I moved to wine and bourbon. I was in the big leagues.

Throughout all of this, I have had a fantastic life, and accomplished many common measures of success so the drinking couldn’t have been a hindrance. At least, that is the way I rationalized. In the meantime, as I aged, some of my friends (drinking buddies) began falling. Dougie, a dear friend in Rio de Janeiro, passed in his apartment with five empty bottles of wine by his bed. Then it was national news when Mike Hammond (Hammer), passed away as another victim of alcohol abuse.

Was I an alcoholic? Of course not. Or so I would say. I could quit any time, which I honestly believed. Until I tried. I could quit at will, but as soon as their was any excuse, I was back on the train. Until my wife’s fateful 39th birthday party, and then I made the commitment to just stop.

I have not suffered any withdrawal symptoms, but this is not easy, alcohol is everywhere and 100% ingrained in my American culture. God only knows how much time I have wasted being drunk / unconscious, inebriated, but suddenly, I have a lot of free time on my hands. I have decided to go to the gym.

And maybe, just maybe, I will start blogging again. Like this one here.

Technology is robbing my children of their childhood

I am a work at home dad, and I love my kids. Sometimes, like now, my heart is broken because my kids are addicted to technology and video games.

Relative to the other kids, Teddy and Jesse are great, but relative to their potential, technology is robbing them of the best times of their life. Both of them have their talents (Teddy golf and Jesse piano), but they are unable to explore these talents because rather than practicing, challenging themselves, and growing, their free time is wasted mindlessly watching videos or video games. They lose hours. Sure, as a parent, I try to be vigilant and stern, but it is exhausting and a losing battle.

My children now 15 and 13 years old lack many social skills of children of prior generations. Rather than interact with other kids, and learning to “get along”, they run home and myopically staring at a seven inch screen.

Perhaps the most worrisome is the skill of observation. They believe that the world is to be experienced through a 2 dimensional screen that tickles two senses (see and hear) and ignores the other three senses (touch, taste and smell). Real world is a beautifully complex ecosystem, and yet their experience is limited to what their devices can deliver.

At times, it is overwhelming, but then I realize it is not the children that are lost in this artficial fake technology bubble, it is the adults. God help us.

Get Out of Neutral

For one year, the world has been stuck in neutral. People are waiting for an invisible hand to move the gear shift back to DRIVE. The masses flock to Netflix and Facebook hoping that somehow the world will become unstuck. Life is short and I don’t want to waste a day and certainly not a year being stuck. We are the invisible hand and our actions define whether the gear shift will move the vehicle forward. I refuse to live my life in neutral.